10 Feb Sometimes I Suck at the Game of Life!!
Ego Versus Truth
From the moment I opened my eyes I was engulfed by fear and a low energetic feeling as if someone had thrown a blanket of darkness over my Soul, leaving nothing more than a slither of light shining through…… Unbeknownst to me at the time, I had subconsciously signed up for a game of life with Ego as my opponent … and I have to tell you, it was absolutely flogging me! That slither of light, or in other words ‘truth’, peeking out from the darkness was not enough to outplay my Ego opponent, and somehow I managed to forget everything I teach, every bit of knowledge I have, every single tool I have in my kit and everything I am!… In fact, if the game of life was snakes and ladders, I felt like I’d landed on the biggest, most venomous adder and slid all the way down to its tail where the darkness blinded me from everything I know to be true and authentic and powerful and honest and beautiful… and instead I fell into the trap of the Ego Mind and it’s bullshit stories of fear, not good enough, can’t do it, it’s too hard and ultimately, the negative core belief that “if I’m not perfect, I’m not good enough!”…
And do you believe, all of this was triggered by my past fear of technology… I’m saying past as my affirmation this year is “technology and I absolutely love each other” 🙂 When I look back now, I cannot believe that I allowed such a trivial thing to have so much power over me… but then I realise, it wasn’t actually the technology part that had the power, it was my Ego saying “haha- checkmate!! Got you again baby!!”
It felt like shit… and in fact….a funny quote I heard in one of Kevin Wilson’s songs years ago just popped into my head and I relate this perfectly to those two days of my life last week… he says… “if she was playing for shit, she’d be at least two turds in debt!” haha, I am laughing now, but I can guarantee you that I was not laughing at the time.
Even with my Spiritual Journey being the most important aspect of my life, the thing I am MOST passionate about… and you all know I have many passions haha…. yet here I was, for two days of my life last week, allowing Ego to dominate my game! As that light of truth within me grew and I was able to climb my way up the ladder and out of the darkness, all thanks to emotional healing and cleansing of the energy body, I felt so cranky at myself for getting sucked into playing by Ego’s rules… I refuse to do that these days simply because I have more awareness and I know full well of its dirty tactics and incessant desire to drag up any unhealed dregs from the past in order to hold it against me like a wild card, unhealed dregs based on past indoctrination of someone else’s truth, as well as my perception of any particular experience at the time it took place during childhood, or in other words… mistakes, lies and bullshit!!
There is only one truth and I know this. I have no religion, I don’t believe in the rules and regulations society enforce on us in order to create fear and control. There can be but one truth and this is found in the heart not the ego mind. Yep, Ego is a dirty player, there’s no doubt about that… and yet most of us play by its rules every single day of our lives simply because we don’t have the tools to play a different game!
I wanted to share this with you, as I know for many people and this included me in the past, the game of life does feel like a tournament, a constant battle. This is one of the reasons I have written my book and am creating the free video series… to empower you with the knowledge and the tools to take back your power, to heal on the deepest level in order to have a choice over how you play the game so that you can start to win… MOST 🙂 of the time.
Today, I am grateful for the game we played, I am also very grateful it was not a tournament 🙂 I am grateful that I copped a thrashing because without duality we would never grow, and every day we play this game called ‘life’ is an opportunity to grow, an opportunity to evolve by gaining more awareness about ourselves. If we are not here to grow and evolve… what’s the point? Oh yer, to accumulate more stuff, that’s right, haha. No, that will never make you truly happy!
Nothing that happens in life today is about today. “We think the way we are feeling is about what’s happening today” but the truth is, it always goes deeper. What happens today is always triggering deeper blocked degenerative cellular memories and negative core beliefs that run 7 days a week, 24 hours a day, unbeknownst to us! Video 1 of my Holistic Health series is about just this, so if you haven’t had the opportunity to check it out, you can do so on http://www.lynnienichols.com/the-real-cause-of-pain-and-disease/
From My Heart to Yours
Have a truly beautiful empowered day xx
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