I knew when I embarked on this adventure it would be one of spiritual growth and after 8 years of guiding/assisting others on their journeys via my holistic healing retreats, I longed for this.  I knew that within this recent fear based turmoil there was a lesson to be learned and deep fears and programming to acknowledge and let go of.  For me, the lesson/healing has been so, so clear.  My conscious and subconscious ‘fear of lack’ rising to the surface in shocking waves, triggered by my surrounds in this third world country, the delays and unexpected accommodation expenses and the communication barrier…stopping any forward movement on my behalf, and at times triggering a projection of stinginess that left me feeling ashamed.  I felt distrust in the Balinese people, fearful I would be or was being misguided or scammed.

Not in a long time have I called upon the Angles of Light so regularly for guidance.  And on day 16,  still homeless, and with the only real access into the land a bridge consisting of 5 bamboo poles wired together, unsure as to just how long this may stay the case, a huge healing took place… so much fear, so many tears, so much aloneness, so much awareness , so much gratitude!

By the next morning there had been a shift within me which is so often the case when a complete, and I mean complete emptying of the emotional body takes place.  I felt lighter, I looked lighter, the pain had gone from my heart and the brick taken out of my gut!  For the first time since I landed in this foreign land I felt myself, joyful, inspired, and ready to face whatever it was that lay ahead, one little step at a time.  This emotional release allowed me to see through different eyes as I looked around with gratitude at the stunning nature that surrounds me here and giggled as I lay back in the ‘natural spa’ that had occurred since the heavy rains… what a gift!  I felt inspired to head into town with my Balinese friend to buy fruit trees for my land… avocado, mango, fig, soursop, cocao, papaya, lemon and lime.  My ‘ego mind’ was eased in regards to being ‘ripped off’ as I was made aware that things were not nearly as cheap as I had assumed… this, in my case, was a good thing!  The healing continued as we pulled over to the side of the road to buy papaya and here it was the opposite, a huge papaya for just $1.50!  We bought a bag of cooked yams and stood there on the side of the road, peeling back the skins and devouring them for lunch… $1 a bag!  So simple, so delicious (especially with some of Don Tolman’s 24crt gold Ra Seasalt that accompanies me everywhere ), so good for you, so filling and so cheap!  I felt aware that this whole experience was for my personal growth… a layer of deep bullshit programming that needed to shift in order for me to move one step closer to achieving my deepest desire of being released from past programming and ego stories of the mind!

I realise, more than ever before, just how indoctrinated we in the western world are in regards to ‘material wealth’ and the chronic fear attached to this programming.  Fears that are based more on ‘what others think and expect’ than our own inherent needs and desires!  Now don’t get me wrong here, I am in no way advocating struggle and lack…I know THAT ONE stems from bad, bad programming!  No, as you are aware, I am soooo looking forward to having my beautiful home here in Bali and eventually the same back in Australia…. I believe it is our birth right as a human being to have a beautiful abundant life… what I am saying is “how much do we really need in order to feel safe?  How much do we REALLY need, especially if the process of accumulation is not enjoyable and keeping us in a state of fear, stress, pain and emotional turmoil, just going through the daily motions, afraid to ‘get off the wheel’ for fear of losing all that we have worked so hard and stressed so much about accumulating in the first place!”

What I see so profoundly through my own personal journey these past weeks is that the ‘ego mind’ and its crazy-ass fear based stories are keeping so many people living in a state of sufferance emotionally, spiritually and unfortunately, physically.  Yep, those stress based headaches, body aches, pains and heaviness eventually manifesting into dis-ease within the physical body!

So, with these fear based stories ranting 24 hours a day, 7 days a week on a subconscious level, the opposite is also occurring.  We are actually creating blockages to abundance!  It may just be that if we took one more little baby step a whole ‘other level’ of abundance would open up for us, yet we never get to know because the fear of loss is just too great to bear.  There’s a very powerful saying that goes… “nature abhors a vortex”… meaning if you create some space, nature ‘has’ to fill it, you are actually creating an opportunity for new amazingness to flow in.  For most however, it is much safer to ‘make do’ and keep working like a slave, and that is exactly what we are, slaves to our Ego Mind!

What’s crazy is that this programming is a double edged sword!  On one hand it is the very reason we push ourselves to ‘sickness’ and yet on the other, it is actually blocking the flow of abundance, making even more reason why (in the mind) we need to keep working like a slave!  These blockages keep us in a state of mediocre, never really contemplating the possibility of just how much amazingness we can really create and how many lives we can truly touch.

Sooo, with those revelations well and truly felt and realised, in this Chinese Year Of The Rooster, this numerology number 1 year (year of new beginnings) I have made the decision to be vigilant to my fear based programming, to monitor my thoughts and make the conscious effort to re-programme my mind through daily affirmations and meditation.  Neuro scientists say it takes 30-200 days to re-programme the central computer, so I am now on my way to letting go of the bullshit barriers that are typically the result of generationally passed down teachings.

In this stunning paradise I, for now at least, call home, spring water runs in abundance from the taps, lush volcanic soils nourish the garden, jungle vegetation creates the most serene peacefulness, heart centred like-minds work toward the same vision of a supportive, sustainable little existence, and with fear locked away for now (it’s a persistent little sucker!!) I move forward with my warung plans.  Cushions and bamboo mats are in the making as are kitchen benches and wooden blinds to keep out the weather.  It will then be off to Denpasar to purchase the cooktop for my signature breakfast ‘rosemary eggs’ , my dehydrator and fermenting jars, a coffee machine, fridges etc… along with my bed and bath if I have a house by then

Plans are now well and truly under way for my first 9 day Holistic Healing Retreat to be held at the stunning Poinciana Resort in Gretek in August, and my like-minded ‘Sister’ on the land and I have just completed co-creating an amazing water fasting retreat package that will be held right here in paradise in July.  Packages for both retreats are now on my website www.lynnienichols.com/retreats.

The Holistic Healing Retreat will be held similarly to those I have been facilitating in Australia these past 8 years but for a few days longer- a 9 night/10 day holistic package of raw food, juice fasting with the option to water fast, holistic health discussions including natures signature foods that act like medicine to each particular body part/organ, emotional healing, voice dialogue, life-coaching, daily yoga/gentle exercise, meditation and sound healing via didgeridoo and crystal bowl via beach camp-fire, healing massages that work on releasing blockages of the meridians… and being Bali we also get to indulge in extra amazingness such as a sunrise dolphin cruise, a guided jungle waterfall excursion to learn about the healing plants in abundance here, a soak in the thermal hot springs of Mt Batur, a High Priestess Blessing and a taste of Ubud’s amazing raw foods!  My first retreat will be an intimate gathering of 5 or 6 guests only so please let me know if you are interested in joining us for this.

The Water Fasting Retreat will run over 12 days beginning with one day of raw food followed by juice fasting for two days, moving into 7 days on pristine highly electrified spring water and then two days of juice and raw foods to integrate back into normality.  This will be facilitated by myself (completed 8 x 10 day water fasts and many smaller fasts) and Tuuli who has, incredibly, completed 2 x 40 day fasts and many smaller fasts, so you will be well supported!  I always say that my 10 day water fasts are as much an emotional detox as a physical one, so our package includes emotional healing, life coaching, voice dialogue self-awareness, camp fires and sound healing via didgeridoo and crystal singing bowl, massages, yoga and meditation, a hot thermal spring soak ….and nature, nature, and more nature including our stunning waterfall just a little walk up the track from the accommodation!  We are only offering 5 places for this retreat and the price is a one-time introductory price only, so please let me know if you are interested in attending this one.

So there you have it, the un-sugar coated version of the last 5 weeks of my life!  Today I feel amazing, being present, moving forward with plans…appreciating with so much gratitude this incredible opportunity to live in paradise, where a visit to my neighbour means trudging up a meandering path, over rocks along the river, through the jungle with a torch for a night time fire to share some laughs, my raw chocolate and tea, or a didgeridoo session around a full moon fire!  Where a walk to the beach and morning local market has me giggling with the locals as they try to understand my limited Indonesian ( I am improving every day though and I love learning this new language) and supplies me with enough yams and sweet potato to feed 5 at a cost of $2…AND YET a few days ago I was walking the streets of Ubud looking for someone to fix my computer, feeling totally alone and overwhelmed, crying like a baby haha.  I have a feeling this may be the story of my life for a little while longer yet as I get to know my way around and settle into this new life!  But you know me, these emotions are better out than in so if I need to chuck a little tanty or have a good ol’ cry now and then… so be it! 

It’s so interesting … I told a man the other day that I have packed up my ‘other life and left it in a shipping container’ along with the most amazing family and friends and clients a girl could ever wish for (I made sure I told him they were not in the container though ) and he still questioned me as to “what I was running from”.  I rest my case re fear based programming… I mean, I couldn’t possibly be following my dream and going on the adventure of my life now could I?

To you Goddess warrior, I whisper the song of sweet surrender

Stop holding… stop fighting… be soft… be still…

Goddess of the Sacred Temple, who knows hatred not,

For you have dared to face the devil within, and slay the demons lurking beneath the shadow of the mind,

Delving into the deepest depths of the Dark Night of the Soul and begging to be torn apart, until tears of terror burned the cheeks of the forlorn child within like acid on a silken gown, leaving her exhausted… breathless… silent…

To you Goddess Warrior, I whisper the song of sweet surrender

Stop holding… stop fighting… be soft… be still…

Spirit Warrior, why do you choose to fight the light and suppress your truth?

There is no greater love than self-love, no acceptance more precious than that of thy own,

Look into the sacred waters within and you will find mirrored there, perfection, and beauty in its fullest expression

Sovereign Being of Love and Light,

Accept the glory bestowed upon you as you journeyed through the tunnel of life,

From the womb of flesh, to be cocooned by the embrace of your beloved Mother Earth,

Be free now of the chains that suppress your Soul and hold you prisoner to your own human form,

Allow now, for that smouldering ember to burn brightly and rage wildly with passion and desire for life,

For like a bird with clipped wings, she longs to fly, to soar like and eagle on the ever changing winds of life, and rule like a queen of her Inner Kingdom.

To you Goddess Warrior, I whisper the song of sweet surrender

Stop holding… stop fighting… be soft… be still…

For only then will you know truth and disregard without haste all forms of self-judgement, criticism and the unworthiness that torments your Soul,

Only then will you claim your divinity and allow the light of truth to illuminate the world, both inside and out, in an offering of unconditional love, peace and freedom,

Only then will you know the eternal existence of life, and hear the whisper of Spirit on every breath of air, every crashing ocean wave and every ray of sunshine that penetrates your skin an permeates your Soul,

Only then will you embrace the eyes that truly see, and ears that hear the sounds of your own true sacredness

To you Goddess warrior, I whisper the song of sweet surrender

Stop holding… stop fighting… be soft… be still…

Lynnie Nichols

As I watched a flock of birds on the beach this morning ‘being’ with the ebb and flow of the ocean tides… not questioning, not worrying, not trying to work it out… just going with the organic flow of life, merging and moving together as one, a pang of sadness shot through my heart, a sadness for the knowledge of how far from truth we as a human race have strayed.  Amongst the Terns I noticed a single Seagull and couldn’t help but smile knowing that for many years, I, like many others, have felt like that solitary gull and yet today, just like the saying ‘birds of a feather flock together,’ all around the world, people of similar vibration are connecting and even gathering, in order to ‘be the change,’ ecstatic to be cutting free from the ‘old ways’ of consumerism and materialism, awakened to the lies and deception, the false teachings that have been embedded into our psyche by our so called education system which in truth is nothing more than indoctrination via chant memorising!  When have we ever been offered the opportunity to think, feel and question what those in power are saying/teaching without fear of ridicule or punishment, when have we ever been given a choice as to what ‘feels’ right or wrong, what feels like truth?  From birth to 7 years old we are like absorbent sponges on an ocean shore, sucking up every drop of information washed over us, until just like that sponge when the tide comes in, we are saturated with beliefs and programs that are a culmination of man-made rules, regulations and lies, with a little bit of truth thrown in just for good luck!

Just like the software of a computer, this indoctrination via chant memory has become the basis of our belief system, the subconscious programming of our mind that runs on autopilot 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, attracting to us, people and situations to affirm our fear based negative core beliefs, keeping us small and in constant need to try and control every aspect (or person) in our life in order to feel safe… and in this, losing all sense of what it is like to live from truth, intuitively, organically, going with the flow of life like that flock of birds on the beach and every other native instinctive animal.

Unknowingly, our minds have become sick (the real cause of disease) with negative beliefs about ourselves- the way we must look and act in order to be worthy of love, the material objects we must possess in order to be good enough and accepted by the masses, along with the deceptive belief that we are powerless victims of a cruel, cruel world which in truth, could not be further from the truth, if only we realised the extent of our true potential.  We have been indoctrinated, manipulated and trained, just like a domesticated animal, doing as we are told even if this does not feel right, for threats and fear of consequences such as losing allowances or material wealth or much worse, all in the name of those in power having even more control and power over us as they line their pockets with greed!

Well, those times are coming to an end thank goodness, but in order for that to happen, it is said there will be a time of darkness such as what is taking place in the world right now.  Just know that it must be this way in order to push those with their eyes shut tight to awaken, and begin questioning the integrity and authenticity of their beliefs and governing systems, as the collective consciousness of our Soul’s beg to be free from the chains that have kept us slaves to our physicality for so long.  Don’t buy into the fear, this will only feed the chaos, instead, focus on all that you have to be grateful for.  Love and be loved, give thanks to Mothers Angels of AFEW, the air that is the very breath of life, the sun that sends golden rays of galactic intelligence to every cell and molecule of your being and is the very substance of life on earth, the earth that provides us with a place to call home and plants that feed our bodies with nutrients, and the water that nourishes and cleanses our body and Soul.

Allow gratitude to emanate out to the world as unconditional love and forgiveness, and in doing so you will begin to ebb and flow with the tides of life and fly freely with the winds of change, just as the Universe intended.

From the moment I opened my eyes I was engulfed by fear and a low energetic feeling as if someone had thrown a blanket of darkness over my Soul, leaving nothing more than a slither of light shining through…… Unbeknownst to me at the time, I had subconsciously signed up for a game of life with Ego as my opponent … and I have to tell you, it was absolutely flogging me! That slither of light, or in other words ‘truth’, peeking out from the darkness was not enough to outplay my Ego opponent, and somehow I managed to forget everything I teach, every bit of knowledge I have, every single tool I have in my kit and everything I am!… In fact, if the game of life was snakes and ladders, I felt like I’d landed on the biggest, most venomous adder and slid all the way down to its tail where the darkness blinded me from everything I know to be true and authentic and powerful and honest and beautiful… and instead I fell into the trap of the Ego Mind and it’s bullshit stories of fear, not good enough, can’t do it, it’s too hard and ultimately, the negative core belief that “if I’m not perfect, I’m not good enough!”…

And do you believe, all of this was triggered by my past fear of technology… I’m saying past as my affirmation this year is “technology and I absolutely love each other” When I look back now, I cannot believe that I allowed such a trivial thing to have so much power over me… but then I realise, it wasn’t actually the technology part that had the power, it was my Ego saying “haha- checkmate!! Got you again baby!!”

It felt like shit… and in fact….a funny quote I heard in one of Kevin Wilson’s songs years ago just popped into my head and I relate this perfectly to those two days of my life last week… he says… “if she was playing for shit, she’d be at least two turds in debt!” haha, I am laughing now, but I can guarantee you that I was not laughing at the time.

Even with my Spiritual Journey being the most important aspect of my life, the thing I am MOST passionate about… and you all know I have many passions haha…. yet here I was, for two days of my life last week, allowing Ego to dominate my game! As that light of truth within me grew and I was able to climb my way up the ladder and out of the darkness, all thanks to emotional healing and cleansing of the energy body, I felt so cranky at myself for getting sucked into playing by Ego’s rules… I refuse to do that these days simply because I have more awareness and I know full well of its dirty tactics and incessant desire to drag up any unhealed dregs from the past in order to hold it against me like a wild card, unhealed dregs based on past indoctrination of someone else’s truth, as well as my perception of any particular experience at the time it took place during childhood, or in other words… mistakes, lies and bullshit!!

There is only one truth and I know this. I have no religion, I don’t believe in the rules and regulations society enforce on us in order to create fear and control. There can be but one truth and this is found in the heart not the ego mind. Yep, Ego is a dirty player, there’s no doubt about that… and yet most of us play by its rules every single day of our lives simply because we don’t have the tools to play a different game!

I wanted to share this with you, as I know for many people and this included me in the past, the game of life does feel like a tournament, a constant battle. This is one of the reasons I have written my book and am creating the free video series… to empower you with the knowledge and the tools to take back your power, to heal on the deepest level in order to have a choice over how you play the game so that you can start to win… MOST of the time.

Today, I am grateful for the game we played, I am also very grateful it was not a tournament I am grateful that I copped a thrashing because without duality we would never grow, and every day we play this game called ‘life’ is an opportunity to grow, an opportunity to evolve by gaining more awareness about ourselves. If we are not here to grow and evolve… what’s the point? Oh yer, to accumulate more stuff, that’s right, haha. No, that will never make you truly happy!

Nothing that happens in life today is about today. “We think the way we are feeling is about what’s happening today” but the truth is, it always goes deeper. What happens today is always triggering deeper blocked degenerative cellular memories and negative core beliefs that run 7 days a week, 24 hours a day, unbeknownst to us! Video 1 of my Holistic Health series is about just this, so if you haven’t had the opportunity to check it out, you can do so on http://www.lynnienichols.com/the-real-cause-of-pain-and-disease/

From My Heart to Yours

Have a truly beautiful empowered day xx

Let me explain why…

1.30am… ding- eyes are open, an unresolved guilt popped into my head

… journey emotional healing session begins, resolved by forgiveness for myself and the other person… bloody hell, we were just doing the best we could with the knowledge and resources we had at the time! How could I still be holding on to that?!

… a lesson from ‘A Course In Miracles’ pops into my head and leads me into my heart and the truest truth! Everything in the Universe/Cosmos is energy… this has been proven by quantum science… so if everything is energy, that means you and I are energy and that also means that the Source of who we are is energy. If that Source is what we call God, Spirit, Creator, Universal Energy etc, then this means that essentially we are that! We are spiritual beings in this physical body, we are God’s and Goddesses living out this game we call life. I say game, because that’s what I believe it is. If we are God’s and Goddesses, we are eternal beings. If that’s the case, what is this life if it is not a game or a dream?! When we experience the level of the Soul, it brings tears of joy, overwhelm and gratitude for the sheer beauty of the bliss, peace, love, joy, freedom and so on that is here, hidden from our awareness by the stories of our mind/ego, that wants to keep this truth from us. So… with this awareness of truth, we can choose to change the way we play the game, or we can continue to suck at it! To enjoy the game more, all we need do is decide to remember the truest truth that we are a Soul having a human experience, and not the other way around. Choose to let go of all the other stories of the ego mind, the subconscious beliefs about ourselves and the world, the blocked cellular memories/emotions we have held on to which continually come back to haunt us and keep us trapped in ego and unforgiveness- constantly pulling our attention away from this truth. The more we focus on the truth, the less control the ego has over us. This is not easy I know, you have to do the work! No one can do it for you, but when you make the decision to want to play the game better, when you make the decision to let go of the bullshit that keeps you trapped in drama, when you make the decision to remember who you really are, when you make the decision to make it a priority to remember the truth so that the game gets easier, something really weird happens… A spiritual teacher (not sure who this was) said once… when you take one step toward the Universe, the Universe takes one hundred steps towards you! I love this because it is the truth!

… How do I say the days of the week in Indonesian again, oh that’s right, senin, salasa, ribu, kamis, jumat, sabtu and hari minguu. Oh that means it’s Hari Minguu today J Hmm, how do I count again… satu, dua, tiga, empat, lima, enam, tujuh, delapan, semblan, sepulah, sebelus, dua belus…

4.44am… I reach over and look at the time, holy crap, 3 hrs has gone by in what seems like ¾ hr. Oh well, I may as well get up and go for a beach walk.

5amish… bathers on, drink a litre of water and a glass of lemon water then off to the beach to spend time with Mothers Angels of AFEW. Air, Fire, Earth and Water. As I step on to the soft white sand, I can’t help but smile at the beauty that is bestowed upon me and the other Soul’s playing this game, riding the waves of life. Well, the Angel of Fire (sun) seems to be having the day off today so I breathe deeply the ocean air, feel the earth beneath my feet and as I dive into the ocean and am embraced by the Angel of Water cleansing my body and Soul, I can’t help but giggle like a little girl. Man… I am choosing to love this game called ‘life’ today!

6ish… get carrots, apples, lemon and beetroot ready for cabala juice, bit early to make noise so I whip up some kale chips by stripping off the leaves and placing in a bowl with a good drizzle of coconut oil, some chilli flakes and a good dose of Himalayan rock salt, another batch with some nutritional yeast included, in the dehydrator they go!

6.20ish… must be time for a dandelion tea and some chocky while I write this post     What??! Chocolate at 6.30 in the morning I hear you say!! Haha, well my answer is don’t knock it till you try it! It’s an amazing way to start the day! I’m not talking about the poison you buy in the shop, I’m talking about healthy, raw , organic chocolate! I call it nature’s anti-depressant coz it makes you feel sooo good! Hmmm, think I will do a post on the benefits of cocao.. it is a super food you know! Put that one on the list of things to do!!

7.52 am… hmmm, now you see what I mean when I say ‘passion sucks’!! Maybe I’m just passionate about too many things! It’s ok though, I’m passionate about nana naps too so if I need to later on, that will definitely be on the cards!

Oh, but one last thing on passion. Do you realise that Passion is one of the 7 Principles of Health. To find your passion and do it every day, make an income from it if you can, is one of the most powerful things you can do for your health. This one principle alone can outweigh so much, it can literally heal your body and your life. When we are ‘doing’ our passion, we are living an inspired, heart centred life which means we are in a state of love and gratitude and on a vibrational level, these are the closest emotional feelings to the truth of who we really are, the closest vibration to the level of the Soul… from this place, you have no choice but to enjoy the game of life!

Have a truly blessed and passionate Hari Minguu everyone      xxx