I feel such a deep sense of gratitude to be reporting that life goes on as per usual here in North Bali, with no dramatic action to report so far!. As I sit here today, the earth feels like she is calming. For the past three days now there has been no big tremors, in comparison to a week ago when I could visibly see and audibly hear my glass house shaking, and whilst riding my scooter, felt the bike veer off in another direction as if I had a flat tyre… now that was an experience!!

I am hoping that this is a positive sign and that all living here in North Bali are reaping the rewards of the many hours spent sending healing energy to Mumma Earth and praying to the Gods for a peaceful outcome. I’ve seen with my own eyes what the power of positive thinking, visualisation and belief can achieve when it comes to healing the human body and so each night I too have been joining the masses by spending time sending healing energy deep within the Earth. Is it doing any good? Well buggered if I know J, but I do know that Quantum science has proven without doubt that everything in the Universe is energy … everything is just energy vibrating at difference resonances, including us, including thought, and including intention! With the amount of high vibrational prayer and positive intention going on right now as whole villages spend days on end praying at their local Temples, I can assure you that there’s plenty of good vibes heading Mt Agung’s way and to the hundreds of people that find themselves homeless right now.

Anyone that knows me will have a giggle, understanding all too well when I say “apart from what I am seeing with my own two eyes, or hearing through direct messages, I would not have a clue what is taking place in the world around me J  Whilst living in QLD, my parents would call me from Western Australia to tell me that I was flooded in on the Sunshine Coast and sure enough, I would go for a drive to find, yep, they were right haha. I know that to many people the idea of not knowing what is taking place in the world seems irresponsible and even a big bit crazy J but you know what, I don’t care what some lying politician has to say, or that some crazy ass bloke is threatening to blow up the world, or that the media says that Mt Agung’s eruption is imminent! It’s all here-say, none of it is ‘definitely the truth’. And what am I going to do about it anyway? How is becoming fearful and laying awake at night worrying about it going to help or change matters? The only thing that fear does is create more fear and negativity. If we go back to Quantum science and all of the amazingly successful people in the world, they knew the power of the mind and the power of positive thought. Have you heard of the saying ‘like attracts like’ and ‘birds of a feather flock together’. Well this is exactly what those sayings mean… that energy vibrating at the same resonance attracts. Fear is like a disease that spreads from one person to the next, creating havoc within the body and mind. Of course it is good to be aware of the ‘real’ dangers that exist and be sensible regarding this, but to spend life worrying about what MIGHT happen, or contemplating and even expecting the worst, brings no good whatsoever and in fact, via the law of attraction, does and will attract negative situations to one-self.

So, with that in mind, in my little world, I believe that where there is a will there is a way, that anything is possible and that miracles do happen! With those beliefs at my core, I spend time focusing on positive outcomes and healing, and apart from working out a plan of action should the worst occur, I don’t spend any time whatsoever in negativity contemplating that worst case scenarios.

It’s been really interesting spending time with people of all nationalities that have come here to the valley for fasting or relaxation, and the amount of times people have thanked me for ‘my presence and healing energy’. At first I felt like looking around to see who they were actually talking to, and then eventually I realised that my ‘positive outlook’ must actually be felt by others and has a calming and even healing affect for them. My faith in ‘Spirit’ allows me to trust that, should I need to know something, someone will tell me, or I will be guided intuitively to take a certain action. I trust in this wholeheartedly.

So whilst life goes on here in the valley, I’m inspired that guests for our upcoming retreat have decided that they also intend to live life fearlessly, continuing with their plans to travel to Bali for health and healing. I’m looking forward to my work supporting a first time 7 day water fast and facilitating the emotional healing that is a huge part of my holistic approach to healing and living a life of authenticity and vitality.

Lastly, on a positive note of course  I just want to say the most heart-felt thankyou to all of you that have messaged me, commented on my post or Instagram or emailed regarding my safety and well-being. At times this love and support, and even offer of alternative accommodation here in Bali should I need it, have overwhelmed me to the point of tears. I seriously think I must be the luckiest girl in the world to be blessed with so much ‘true abundance’. Thank you everyone, I love youuuuu xxx J

OK, so for now I will say Mimpi Manis (sweet dreams) and sign off trusting that all will be well… and should serious volcanic action occur, the people of North Bali will be kept safe n’ sound

I knew when I embarked on this adventure it would be one of spiritual growth and after 8 years of guiding/assisting others on their journeys via my holistic healing retreats, I longed for this.  I knew that within this recent fear based turmoil there was a lesson to be learned and deep fears and programming to acknowledge and let go of.  For me, the lesson/healing has been so, so clear.  My conscious and subconscious ‘fear of lack’ rising to the surface in shocking waves, triggered by my surrounds in this third world country, the delays and unexpected accommodation expenses and the communication barrier…stopping any forward movement on my behalf, and at times triggering a projection of stinginess that left me feeling ashamed.  I felt distrust in the Balinese people, fearful I would be or was being misguided or scammed.

Not in a long time have I called upon the Angles of Light so regularly for guidance.  And on day 16,  still homeless, and with the only real access into the land a bridge consisting of 5 bamboo poles wired together, unsure as to just how long this may stay the case, a huge healing took place… so much fear, so many tears, so much aloneness, so much awareness , so much gratitude!

By the next morning there had been a shift within me which is so often the case when a complete, and I mean complete emptying of the emotional body takes place.  I felt lighter, I looked lighter, the pain had gone from my heart and the brick taken out of my gut!  For the first time since I landed in this foreign land I felt myself, joyful, inspired, and ready to face whatever it was that lay ahead, one little step at a time.  This emotional release allowed me to see through different eyes as I looked around with gratitude at the stunning nature that surrounds me here and giggled as I lay back in the ‘natural spa’ that had occurred since the heavy rains… what a gift!  I felt inspired to head into town with my Balinese friend to buy fruit trees for my land… avocado, mango, fig, soursop, cocao, papaya, lemon and lime.  My ‘ego mind’ was eased in regards to being ‘ripped off’ as I was made aware that things were not nearly as cheap as I had assumed… this, in my case, was a good thing!  The healing continued as we pulled over to the side of the road to buy papaya and here it was the opposite, a huge papaya for just $1.50!  We bought a bag of cooked yams and stood there on the side of the road, peeling back the skins and devouring them for lunch… $1 a bag!  So simple, so delicious (especially with some of Don Tolman’s 24crt gold Ra Seasalt that accompanies me everywhere ), so good for you, so filling and so cheap!  I felt aware that this whole experience was for my personal growth… a layer of deep bullshit programming that needed to shift in order for me to move one step closer to achieving my deepest desire of being released from past programming and ego stories of the mind!

I realise, more than ever before, just how indoctrinated we in the western world are in regards to ‘material wealth’ and the chronic fear attached to this programming.  Fears that are based more on ‘what others think and expect’ than our own inherent needs and desires!  Now don’t get me wrong here, I am in no way advocating struggle and lack…I know THAT ONE stems from bad, bad programming!  No, as you are aware, I am soooo looking forward to having my beautiful home here in Bali and eventually the same back in Australia…. I believe it is our birth right as a human being to have a beautiful abundant life… what I am saying is “how much do we really need in order to feel safe?  How much do we REALLY need, especially if the process of accumulation is not enjoyable and keeping us in a state of fear, stress, pain and emotional turmoil, just going through the daily motions, afraid to ‘get off the wheel’ for fear of losing all that we have worked so hard and stressed so much about accumulating in the first place!”

What I see so profoundly through my own personal journey these past weeks is that the ‘ego mind’ and its crazy-ass fear based stories are keeping so many people living in a state of sufferance emotionally, spiritually and unfortunately, physically.  Yep, those stress based headaches, body aches, pains and heaviness eventually manifesting into dis-ease within the physical body!

So, with these fear based stories ranting 24 hours a day, 7 days a week on a subconscious level, the opposite is also occurring.  We are actually creating blockages to abundance!  It may just be that if we took one more little baby step a whole ‘other level’ of abundance would open up for us, yet we never get to know because the fear of loss is just too great to bear.  There’s a very powerful saying that goes… “nature abhors a vortex”… meaning if you create some space, nature ‘has’ to fill it, you are actually creating an opportunity for new amazingness to flow in.  For most however, it is much safer to ‘make do’ and keep working like a slave, and that is exactly what we are, slaves to our Ego Mind!

What’s crazy is that this programming is a double edged sword!  On one hand it is the very reason we push ourselves to ‘sickness’ and yet on the other, it is actually blocking the flow of abundance, making even more reason why (in the mind) we need to keep working like a slave!  These blockages keep us in a state of mediocre, never really contemplating the possibility of just how much amazingness we can really create and how many lives we can truly touch.

Sooo, with those revelations well and truly felt and realised, in this Chinese Year Of The Rooster, this numerology number 1 year (year of new beginnings) I have made the decision to be vigilant to my fear based programming, to monitor my thoughts and make the conscious effort to re-programme my mind through daily affirmations and meditation.  Neuro scientists say it takes 30-200 days to re-programme the central computer, so I am now on my way to letting go of the bullshit barriers that are typically the result of generationally passed down teachings.

In this stunning paradise I, for now at least, call home, spring water runs in abundance from the taps, lush volcanic soils nourish the garden, jungle vegetation creates the most serene peacefulness, heart centred like-minds work toward the same vision of a supportive, sustainable little existence, and with fear locked away for now (it’s a persistent little sucker!!) I move forward with my warung plans.  Cushions and bamboo mats are in the making as are kitchen benches and wooden blinds to keep out the weather.  It will then be off to Denpasar to purchase the cooktop for my signature breakfast ‘rosemary eggs’ , my dehydrator and fermenting jars, a coffee machine, fridges etc… along with my bed and bath if I have a house by then

Plans are now well and truly under way for my first 9 day Holistic Healing Retreat to be held at the stunning Poinciana Resort in Gretek in August, and my like-minded ‘Sister’ on the land and I have just completed co-creating an amazing water fasting retreat package that will be held right here in paradise in July.  Packages for both retreats are now on my website www.lynnienichols.com/retreats.

The Holistic Healing Retreat will be held similarly to those I have been facilitating in Australia these past 8 years but for a few days longer- a 9 night/10 day holistic package of raw food, juice fasting with the option to water fast, holistic health discussions including natures signature foods that act like medicine to each particular body part/organ, emotional healing, voice dialogue, life-coaching, daily yoga/gentle exercise, meditation and sound healing via didgeridoo and crystal bowl via beach camp-fire, healing massages that work on releasing blockages of the meridians… and being Bali we also get to indulge in extra amazingness such as a sunrise dolphin cruise, a guided jungle waterfall excursion to learn about the healing plants in abundance here, a soak in the thermal hot springs of Mt Batur, a High Priestess Blessing and a taste of Ubud’s amazing raw foods!  My first retreat will be an intimate gathering of 5 or 6 guests only so please let me know if you are interested in joining us for this.

The Water Fasting Retreat will run over 12 days beginning with one day of raw food followed by juice fasting for two days, moving into 7 days on pristine highly electrified spring water and then two days of juice and raw foods to integrate back into normality.  This will be facilitated by myself (completed 8 x 10 day water fasts and many smaller fasts) and Tuuli who has, incredibly, completed 2 x 40 day fasts and many smaller fasts, so you will be well supported!  I always say that my 10 day water fasts are as much an emotional detox as a physical one, so our package includes emotional healing, life coaching, voice dialogue self-awareness, camp fires and sound healing via didgeridoo and crystal singing bowl, massages, yoga and meditation, a hot thermal spring soak ….and nature, nature, and more nature including our stunning waterfall just a little walk up the track from the accommodation!  We are only offering 5 places for this retreat and the price is a one-time introductory price only, so please let me know if you are interested in attending this one.

So there you have it, the un-sugar coated version of the last 5 weeks of my life!  Today I feel amazing, being present, moving forward with plans…appreciating with so much gratitude this incredible opportunity to live in paradise, where a visit to my neighbour means trudging up a meandering path, over rocks along the river, through the jungle with a torch for a night time fire to share some laughs, my raw chocolate and tea, or a didgeridoo session around a full moon fire!  Where a walk to the beach and morning local market has me giggling with the locals as they try to understand my limited Indonesian ( I am improving every day though and I love learning this new language) and supplies me with enough yams and sweet potato to feed 5 at a cost of $2…AND YET a few days ago I was walking the streets of Ubud looking for someone to fix my computer, feeling totally alone and overwhelmed, crying like a baby haha.  I have a feeling this may be the story of my life for a little while longer yet as I get to know my way around and settle into this new life!  But you know me, these emotions are better out than in so if I need to chuck a little tanty or have a good ol’ cry now and then… so be it! 

It’s so interesting … I told a man the other day that I have packed up my ‘other life and left it in a shipping container’ along with the most amazing family and friends and clients a girl could ever wish for (I made sure I told him they were not in the container though ) and he still questioned me as to “what I was running from”.  I rest my case re fear based programming… I mean, I couldn’t possibly be following my dream and going on the adventure of my life now could I?

I could do nothing but surrender to the assault taking place within me, the internal tantrum of my ‘Inner Child’, as I realised with epiphany exactly what was occurring… how the mental exhaustion of the constant ‘doing’, and giving… and total lack of ‘being’ and receiving, for not just days or weeks on end, but in fact months, had created such an energetic imbalance I was now sitting on the brink of burnout, with no doubt by the emotional outpouring that the slightest tilt to one side would have me tipping the scales and toppling into oblivion.  I had been receiving warnings for weeks, messages from my Angels and Higher Self telling me ‘body care, body care’, ‘rest and retreat’, ‘please don’t ignore this warning, take notice without delay’…. But did I listen?  No!  There were things that needed to be done and my ‘Pusher Self’ was adamant that no one could do them but me…. so just keep going she said, you will be ok she said, we will stop and rest soon, she said… as she ticked another job off the list with a smile of satisfaction and forced down the tiredness and apathy rising to the surface in a warning sign from my Soul.

But today the ‘Pusher Self’ was stopped dead in her tracks as my Inner Child demanded, in no uncertain terms that I STOP, love and nurture her, and find balance before burn out! The profoundness of her existence had me conversing aloud… “I’m so sorry, you’re so right, oh my god, I didn’t realise” And as if there was another person in the room, a voice replied, “It’s not fair… what about me?”  “I want chocolate, and I want Starwars and I want it NOW!”…  

I remember the first time I met one of my Inner Children.  It was years ago now during a Voice Dialogue session (based on Yungian psychology).  I was absolutely blown away and even a little freaked out, when I moved to a different chair and the side of me that began speaking was that of a very young little girl.  When my facilitator questioned how old I felt, I peeped “4” and sat there with hands covering face, peeking out through my fingers, feeling extremely shy and anxious and unsure whether to giggle or cry!  It was one of the most bizarre things I have ever experienced, yet so, so profound!  But it was not the 4 year old throwing a tantrum this day, it was my 10 year old, which although still a child energy, is very strong willed and powerful…

Ok, so here’s the thing…. we all have different sides to us!  Yes… as scary as it sounds, I guess you could say we are all a bit schizophrenic BUT don’t panic just yet…… there is a difference… and that is that we have awareness of these different sides, or some of them at least!  I like to explain it this way….. we are all Eternal Beings (Souls) having a human experience… our body is our vehicle to get around in whilst we play ‘the game of life’(if we are eternal, this must be a game, right?!)…. Ok, so think for a moment of your vehicle being a bus.  All of the passengers on the bus are the different sides of us, in truth we have so many they wouldn’t all fit on the bus!  So anyway, the ‘Selves’ on the bus take it in turns of driving!  Some drive the bus a lot, we call these the ‘Primary Selves’, and others hardly get a look in at all!  Some are excellent bus drivers whilst others are very, very scary, just like a learner driver!!

Through years of facilitating Voice Dialogue, I have come to realise that whenever a person gets to the point of burnout, breakdown, chronic fatigue etc, it is because one ‘self’ is driving the bus waaaay too much.  What needs to take place in order to correct the situation, is for that person to get in touch with an ‘opposite self’ to the ‘bus driver’ and in doing this, restore the balance!  For example, in my case on this occasion… my ‘Pusher Self’ had such a strong grip on that steering wheel, she wasn’t giving it up to anybody, in fact, I would say she was in control at least 90% of each day, meaning my mind was on overdrive to the point that I couldn’t sleep at night due to thoughts, ideas, lists, more lists and more lists!!!!  Far out!!!  Once I realised this, thanks to my Inner Child’s tantrum, and found balance by kicking ‘The Pusher’ to the back of the bus… well actually, I dragged her along behind the bus for a bit, just to teach her a lesson :), buckling my usual ‘primary self’ that knows how to relax, breathe and just BE into the driver’s seat…not only did the feelings of sadness, overwhelm and exhaustion disappear, but the inner peace and positivity were restored almost instantly!

Without self-awareness, we go through life on auto pilot, playing out the programes installed in the software of our central computer (brain), which neuroscientists have discovered is embedded in the psyche by the time we are just 7 years old!!  This programming is behind how we behave, treat others, what we believe, what we expect and accept, and can sometimes have us behaving in ways that are detrimental to our health and our life.  What’s fantastic about self-awareness is that it gives us choice.  Without judgement we can look at who we are and make a conscious decision to stay the same or make change, and when we have the ability to access opposites via a process such as Voice Dialogue, change becomes so much easier.  For instance, I have worked with depressed people that discover ‘opposite sides’ of themselves that do not feel the slightest bit depressed, people with chronic anxiety that discover a ‘self’ that is confident and peaceful, control freaks finally able to relax as they discover sides of themselves that allow them to feel safe enough to let go of control, inner critics losing their power as a ‘self-loving, nurturing self’ takes precedence over the driver’s seat!

We are all doing the best we can with the resources we have due to our past programming…  Who’s driving your bus? 

In my book I explain exactly how you can discover your subconscious programming and change the negative core beliefs to empowering, positive programs.

If this resonates, you can now pre-order a copy of my book on www.lynnienichols.com .

You will also find a link on the homepage for my free Holistic Healing Video Series which also talks about our subconscious programming as well as healing the emotional, energetic and spiritual bodies.

From the moment I opened my eyes I was engulfed by fear and a low energetic feeling as if someone had thrown a blanket of darkness over my Soul, leaving nothing more than a slither of light shining through…… Unbeknownst to me at the time, I had subconsciously signed up for a game of life with Ego as my opponent … and I have to tell you, it was absolutely flogging me! That slither of light, or in other words ‘truth’, peeking out from the darkness was not enough to outplay my Ego opponent, and somehow I managed to forget everything I teach, every bit of knowledge I have, every single tool I have in my kit and everything I am!… In fact, if the game of life was snakes and ladders, I felt like I’d landed on the biggest, most venomous adder and slid all the way down to its tail where the darkness blinded me from everything I know to be true and authentic and powerful and honest and beautiful… and instead I fell into the trap of the Ego Mind and it’s bullshit stories of fear, not good enough, can’t do it, it’s too hard and ultimately, the negative core belief that “if I’m not perfect, I’m not good enough!”…

And do you believe, all of this was triggered by my past fear of technology… I’m saying past as my affirmation this year is “technology and I absolutely love each other” When I look back now, I cannot believe that I allowed such a trivial thing to have so much power over me… but then I realise, it wasn’t actually the technology part that had the power, it was my Ego saying “haha- checkmate!! Got you again baby!!”

It felt like shit… and in fact….a funny quote I heard in one of Kevin Wilson’s songs years ago just popped into my head and I relate this perfectly to those two days of my life last week… he says… “if she was playing for shit, she’d be at least two turds in debt!” haha, I am laughing now, but I can guarantee you that I was not laughing at the time.

Even with my Spiritual Journey being the most important aspect of my life, the thing I am MOST passionate about… and you all know I have many passions haha…. yet here I was, for two days of my life last week, allowing Ego to dominate my game! As that light of truth within me grew and I was able to climb my way up the ladder and out of the darkness, all thanks to emotional healing and cleansing of the energy body, I felt so cranky at myself for getting sucked into playing by Ego’s rules… I refuse to do that these days simply because I have more awareness and I know full well of its dirty tactics and incessant desire to drag up any unhealed dregs from the past in order to hold it against me like a wild card, unhealed dregs based on past indoctrination of someone else’s truth, as well as my perception of any particular experience at the time it took place during childhood, or in other words… mistakes, lies and bullshit!!

There is only one truth and I know this. I have no religion, I don’t believe in the rules and regulations society enforce on us in order to create fear and control. There can be but one truth and this is found in the heart not the ego mind. Yep, Ego is a dirty player, there’s no doubt about that… and yet most of us play by its rules every single day of our lives simply because we don’t have the tools to play a different game!

I wanted to share this with you, as I know for many people and this included me in the past, the game of life does feel like a tournament, a constant battle. This is one of the reasons I have written my book and am creating the free video series… to empower you with the knowledge and the tools to take back your power, to heal on the deepest level in order to have a choice over how you play the game so that you can start to win… MOST of the time.

Today, I am grateful for the game we played, I am also very grateful it was not a tournament I am grateful that I copped a thrashing because without duality we would never grow, and every day we play this game called ‘life’ is an opportunity to grow, an opportunity to evolve by gaining more awareness about ourselves. If we are not here to grow and evolve… what’s the point? Oh yer, to accumulate more stuff, that’s right, haha. No, that will never make you truly happy!

Nothing that happens in life today is about today. “We think the way we are feeling is about what’s happening today” but the truth is, it always goes deeper. What happens today is always triggering deeper blocked degenerative cellular memories and negative core beliefs that run 7 days a week, 24 hours a day, unbeknownst to us! Video 1 of my Holistic Health series is about just this, so if you haven’t had the opportunity to check it out, you can do so on http://www.lynnienichols.com/the-real-cause-of-pain-and-disease/

From My Heart to Yours

Have a truly beautiful empowered day xx